What can I say? Funerals are horrendous at the best of times but wearing masks and the congregation unable to sing took it to a whole new level. Thank you to my friend for coming to look after the animals in my absence to attend my Fathers funeral.

It was a beautiful send off and he would have been proud so many felt so strongly for him and loved him. My brother spoke about how his daughter will remember him as she is now older and was a reason to live for when my other brother died seventeen years ago..

But it saddened me listening to him, to be reminded that my own grand daughter will not remember my Father, her Grandfather because she is so tiny still.

Perhaps when one reads words out loud to an audience, one should reflect on how ones own happiness can bring sorrow to another..

My eldest son, father of my grand daughter must have felt wretched to be reminded so poignantly that his own daughter will not know my father or remember him as my brothers will.

Perhaps I am just distraught for all of them as I miss him so terribly as does my Mother.

Below, bless her is my granddaughter waving goodbye to my Father, her grandfather she will not remember.. God bless.. we will tell her what a wonderful man he was..

Well the forecasting is getting worse, the grass is growing unable to be cut but we do not flood so are ok – sorry for the rest of you..

sometimes when life gets you down the animal antics around you just make you smile – nature is wonderful!

the longest day of the year is upon us and with drizzle, wind and rain, I feel for those at the Stones.. so here are some blooms I took in the Sunshine to keep you warm as you wait for Summer!

As the searing heat abates and rain sets in once more, a light relief perhaps but stunning sunrises and sunsets preceded the endless drizzle..

A Mothers love is unquestionable and far reaching, no matter what, who, or where?

sometimes words are just not needed – just a hug, a cuddle or a hand hold..

Well our remaining pregnant mums are enjoying a few cat naps in the Summer – but are they still pregnant or just fat from Covid over indulgence like me?

The sharp eyed amongst you will have noticed the “telescope” head of the first cria 2021 to the farthest right of the picture above LOL

They say life goes on and that time is a great healer. To be honest after “that day” as a Farmer I have had to continue on regardless without time to grieve. With some hot weather still predicted but not guaranteed we took the executive decision to take a first Silage Cut rather than risk rain and not dry properly before baling which would render the Hay useless – so Silage it was..

should be able to get a second cut later if weather holds after some much needed rain..

Many followers know that I am a Christian as are my parents. Many followers also know that my Father has been very ill for many years but as a true soldier that he was, rose to every challenge.

It is with great sadness and heavy heart that I write to inform that my Father, Grandfather and Great Grandfather has died today, peacefully at home with my Mother.

What can I say? That a part of me died with him? That there is a hole in my heart that can never heal? That I have a face full of tears and a head full of fond memories?

I have to be strong for my family and my Mother who has been his girlfriend, fiance then wife since she was 16 and is now 85 – just like the Queen she has lost the love of her life . A part of her is missing.. half in fact.

I would like here to say a big thank you to all our friends who have supported us for the years he has been ill, to the NHS and all the Doctors, Nurses and Palliative care Nurses who visited him and my Mother on so many occasions over the past ten years of his illness and suffering.

There are so many, many people in the last year who have lost loved ones through Covid and natural causes who are mourning still and some who could not be with their loved ones at the end or at the funeral.

My Father was a Trojan Warrior fighting against the odds to live to see his Grandchildren born year on year and would have been 90 in September this year. My parents have 10 Grandchildren and 7 Great Grandchildren if I have that correct.. with at least another one Great Grandchild on the way this year.

He met his newest Great Granddaughter this year when Lockdown permitted and he took great joy in that meeting.

Ever grateful for everything and always counting his blessings, my Father will be sorely missed by all who knew, met and loved him but most of all by his doting and caring wife, my Mother.

My Mother nursed him at home for ten years of which the last four has been the most difficult with him becoming chair bound in the last two years not leaving their home at all. She deserves a medal and has gone beyond any marriage vow of “in sickness and in health” – I salute you Mum.

When someone dies the Soul leaves the body and depending on your own beliefs goes wherever you believe it goes.. for me I know that my Father is in Heaven looking down on us now and I will see him in every white cloud on a blue sky

and every Sunset,

embracing me from on high with the love he has always given to each and everyone of us.

Rest in peace Daddy, I will miss you forever and I am glad that you are no longer in such pain.